welcome 2011!!

Good bye 2010...


Though you were not so good , you were not the worse what I expected..I immensely thank you for the same!!

Hope this year brings all the joy and the real happiness :):)

Welcome 2011...

Airtel Sucks!!! :(:(

With all happiness I messaged ( 3 messages ) my friends Christmas wishes.Later I checked my balance.I was surprised that they didn't charge on a special occasion.Generally they charge 1 rupee per message on a special day.

I though Airtel is improving in its service.

After an hour I received a message "THANKs for using FS-Airtel music portal subscription service from airtel.YOu have been charged re-1 "

What the.. I gathered all my patience and decided to wait for another day to check it again.And I receive the same message and my balance is gone for an un-subscribed subscription. :(

I have been using aritel for 2 yrs now and I have never faced any issue with the service except for unnecessary calls.If you don't pick the call, never mind, unless you pick they will keep calling. "SAD Again"

I never knew the customer care no too.Asked my sis ( she faces the prob every now and then ; in fact from the very first day ;P Lucky me..I managed two years)

What a long procedure to get though the initial phase and at the end I landed at the customer care phone.There came another shock " you will be charged 50 paise for this call.If you wish to continue proceed further "

I mean , not sure about other service providers, but what the heck.We are calling our own provider for the issue they created and we need to pay for the service.Aren't we paying enough for them which includes free customer care support too.

A person verified and he says I have been charged because I downloaded something .When I said him that I have no idea about this he repeated the same sentence.ANd he also said download happed at my end.MAN!!

I was in no mood to argue , so he gave me a number and asked me to disconnect the service.I hanged and tried the same no.It says i am not subscribed to Airtel internet connection.

????? !!!! I am all blank.Though I am a technical person, I am not into these gadgets.I only use the cell phone for calls and messages.Apart from these .I have absolutely no clue about the features on my cell. :(:(

How could they do this to me!! I mean I opted for this sim (though its costly) ..only for one (two ) reason that I have absolutely no network issues and some where I read that Airtel and BSNl are the only two providers whose revenue comes to India ( ...etc etc.. I am bad at this.hope you understood what I meant )

gjlshjgkljfiol.. I was damn concerned about this country too! The money I pay should come back to our own country!!! nonsense...


One LAST time I will give a try!!! If I get my money back well and good... Else who cares about the country!! I am changing my number!! Somewhere I read that without changing the number we can change the provider .I was so happy to read that news.But now.. IS IT TRUE!! Did they start implementing or yet to implement!!

IF its under the category of 'yet to implement' then forget it.. It will definitely take years to be implemented and thats INDIA.

I don't want to change the number. :(:(:(

God save ME!!!

blore... adore!!

Bangalore misses the BEACH!!!!!!!!!!!

This is the only one which is missing in bangalore..Else I would call this place to be a complete live in town...


How I wish a beach pops in the town all of a sudden !!

long live!!

How does it feel when you meet a friend you have known for years...13 years I mean!!

I'm elated I must say!!

Meena,this girl whom I met in my 6th std.We were bench mates.I still remember the bench we sat for the first time, the way we studied.Not sure how , but we were constantly in touch..knowingly or unknowingly...:) Now I'm extremely happy for knowing someone for so many years.It does give profound happiness you see.We don't share much of words, you know silence is more than enough..

Amidst all the sad things happening around...long lost memories freshen's our mind!

Exactly after 363 days we met!!yeah.. somehow we decided to meet within an year!! It did happen!!

And this weekend, most probably I will meet Sandhya too..This girl is a busy bee..not sure how she made up her mind for a get-together.

kaadhal :)

nan karthirukkiren...
en manam muzhudhum nambikkai-udan, aasaiyudan...
ni en vazhkail varum tharunam...
nam iv-ulagin kaanadha sandhosham kaanavendun..
nam kangal pesum varthai...
nam mounathil pesum konjal...
nam manam paadum kaadhal..
nan unmel vaithirukkum moham..
nam nesam...
endrum inai piriya anbu..
nan karthirukkiren...!!
ni engirukkiraayo..!! ??

kadhal ;)

unnai nan partha piragu ..nan naanaga illai
unnodu nan pesum bhodhu... en manam en idathhil illai..
un vizhiyil en vizhiyai parthabhodhu..sandhoshathil nan ivvidam illai...

ippodhu niyum illai... nam kadhalum illai..
en ada indha kannamuchi..

I miss many of my very dear ones who made my life beautiful!!
to name few....anu,shon,deepti,shiv,jisha,meena,sandhya,prejini,..

I spoke to everyone on the list this week.Yet, the talk through phone was not so very convincing.

Hope to meet them for real..be it for a second or for hours..

"There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that , you just want to pick them up from your dream and hug them for real"

deepavali nal vazhthukkal...

vediakaalai ezhundhu ennai theyarthu koolithu..
putham puihu udai uduthi..
palaharam ellorukkum paraimari,
nanum undru,
en manam maghizum varai nan deepavali mathhapukkal vedikka..
ennai pol angu innoru siruvan
rasayanamgalil vendhu madigiraan..
nan enna seyya..angu sivakasiyil idhuthan avargalin vazhvaadharam,
idhai ninaithu nan mathhappu vanguvadha,,
illai, avargalin nalan karudhi...
deepavaliai, pattasu illamal kondaduvadha????!!!!
ehdu vaaga irundhalum,...
deepavali nal vazhthukkal...

:( :(

No matter how well you prepare yourself for something…no matter how well you know what to expect out of a certain situation…

…when reality hits, it hits you hard. It always turns out to be either million times better or million times worse than what you had envisioned.

In my case... its million times worse than what I had thought ........

:(

so may thoughts gushing up in the mind!!

writers block !!!

:(:(

random rants....

there were days where you only had to speak about assignments, tests, latest crush n occasionally grades.

Lately I realized I only speak about two things.Job( 1% of the entire conversation )and the rest is occupied by the word marriage *sigh*.

Oh yes.. if you get a good husband/wife.. then needless to say.. only happy talks... on the other end...if this word called marriage doesn't favor you...trust me... the entire life is screwed up..

And also when you are desperately wanting for kid.. there is no good news... and on the other side when you desperately postpone.. you end up having a kid... man!! life is just so complex.

All those married friends there.. good Luck!!!

A note to sweety... girl.. don't be scared.You still have time to get married.Its a long process.First they need to find out if jadhagam matches and then the guys parents should like you,the guy should like you, then your parents should like the guy and then you should like the guy..and most imp you should get convinced that he will take care of you... you know its long and tedious process.So relax.. :):)

unakkagha..

25-sep-2009....

Maraname!!!!! indha bhoomiyil ethanayo manidhargal
unnai edhir parthu kondirukkirargal...
ni avargalidam sel...
ethanayo manidhargal...
noyai edhirkolla mudiyaamal , mudhumaiyai edhirkolla mudiyaamal
unnai edhir parthu kondirukkirargal...
ni avargalidam sel...
yen vazhkaiai anubhavikka vendiyavargali
kondu selgirai???????!!

maranam.... 22 vayadhil maranam....
ni engalai vittu vegu dhooram sendrirundhalum ...
un ninaivulgal engaladhu nenjodu eppozhudhum irukkum...
mudhalam andu ninaivu anjali...sandhyavirkku...

un melliya sirippai nan innum ketukondudhan irukkiren...
chinna chinna vishayathayum nan ippodhu ninaivil vaithirukkiren....

kalathai verukkiren..naam sandhipom endru naan ninaithirukka...
sandhithom....
ni sadalamaga...un arugil..en manam sadalamaga..
mounanthil ni uranga..
nan endrum mounanmaanen....

Nijam Nizhalanadhu... :)

I love these words.. writing it again :) ..this time idhu enakaga :)

unnai nan parthapiragu
en manam solliyadhu....
nithan anbu,pasam,natpu,kadhal endru...

unnodu pazhagumbodhu
en manam solliyadhu...
nithan en thozhi,kadhali,vazhkai endru...

unnai vittu piriyumbhodhu
en manam solliyadhu...
ni ennodu iruppai...
en swasamaga ..nesamaga....
un ninaivugal eppodhum ennai vittu
piriyadhu endru...

unnai vittu prindhapodhu
en manam solliyadhu...
ni ippodhum ..eppodhum ennodu iruppai...
nijamaga alla... nizhalaga........
endrum .....endrendrum

ennai vittu vilagi po!!

ennai vittu vilagi po...
un ninaivugali nan sumakkha thayaragaillai...
ennai vittu vilagi po...
ni en arugil irundhal...
ennal en valzhkai-il munetram kaana mudiyadhu...
ennai vittu vilagi po...
en manam unnai ninaikkum pozhudhellam
nan en ninaivai marakkiren
ennai vittu vilagi po...
en vazhkai-il irundhu ni vilagi po !!!!
Bhayam!!! ni ennai vittu vilagi po !!!!

idhudhano natpu...

sandhosham en arugil irundhapodhellam
ni illai ennodu...
nan magizhndha kaalamthorum
ni illai ennodu...
nan sirithu vazhthabhodu
ni illai ennodu...

ippodhu nan irukkiren...
en idam sandhosham, magizhchi,sirippu iilai...
ni irukkirai..en arugil.
en kannerai thudaikka..
natppu enra peyaral... :)

good luck guys...

pre script : wanted to write this on sep 24 2010.But i must say..
i am obsessed with these thoughts..so venting it here asap will surely help me move on...

Shiv,Arya,Prateek,Indrani,Ashish,Renin,Praveen,Seema,Sow,ranjith,(picked up these names in the order of seating )sandeep,priya,shon,deepthi,sri,shybu,et all...

congrats guys.... its been almost 1 yr and 8 months (including the internship)
My best wishes :):):):):):):)
hope by next year you guys get a very good appraisal and promotion, onsite visit too ( too much to ask for in this vast institution... ikw.. :)

once again ..my best wishes :):):)
cheers!!


To meena and sandhya !!
best wishes to you tooo... :):)
We always spoke about -- together schooling -- together college -- together work too..the later one too happened... and we were extremely happy(yes..i remember how we spoke about the bus stop, reading and loads n loads of it from the first year.... sob..sob.. I could not get through!!!!!!!

oh yes..let me not get into it... Everything happens for a reason ( I say this 1000 times a day )

doesn't matter now... i'm sure you guys are doing great!!
:):)

congrats all :):):)

I miss those coffee sessions with you guys so badly!!!!!
Those ILI sessions were real fun...
i miss fighting with arya for chicken biriyani n gulaab jamoon...
i also miss calling her up and telling her that I can t find my specs (without which I am completely blind ) and she laughing away to the glory....asking if she need to come n help me out for finding it (thank god i found it myself )
I miss walking in rain
Finally I have messed it up all ...
no worries...:)I tried my best...

zzzzzz..........

Is there anyway to bunk office..n tell the seniors that " I was in no mood to work " like we did back in our college days !!!!!

miss those days..where for no reason you bunk and no one actually bothered to ask you why you did so...


Life is crazy!!!!!!!!!

sheer stupidity !!!! yet valued :)

I generally tell my sister that If I die, bury my precious bag along with me.So she says she will first finish my ceremonies and later will arrange for another funeral ceremony for my bag.I remember the way she actually showed me how she will carry the bag.

Well whats so special with that bag!! I actually cal it as junk.. few inland letters, airmails from my friend n few more stuffs like chocolate papers, a pen ,few special photographs, some handwritten papers and so on.

But now I am worried.
I no longer maintain a dairy. (I don't believe in online diary)
I started with this blog. However only P,S,D,J know about my blog (Thank god!!!its only them ...I still wonder how they actually got to know about this.I never told any one :( well..not a prob!! )

What will happen to my dear blog if I die... man!! no one to care about its clothing (read design and appearance) and to click pics of this blog with various outfits..huf!!! I didn't think about it.

Very soon I will start writing with paper and pen.I need my so called nonsense writings buried with me.

him :)

I chose a beautiful saree and was just standing for them to arrive.As I heard the voices closer.. i began wondering why on earth I have grown old enough to get married.But I convinced myself and agreed for everything what my parents said.

I didn't speak to him when he first came to me see me (nothing that I am shy n all ... I was rather scared and was so much worried that I will not be single anymore.

Some how things worked between the two families and they arranged for an engagement with some the close friends and so called relatives(oopss..sorry for the word so called.I always prefix them to the word relative).

The marriage date was fixed.We had exactly 4 months time to get to know each other.Phone calls,chats,sms.We did utilize the technologies pretty well.Just got to know the very basic character of the person ( you see... A life time is not enough to understand a person completely.There is always two different souls within us.We just change the facet according to the situation)

Then came the d day.I didn't sleep for many hours thinking about have I made the right decision.There is no running way.No matter how bad it is I have to accept it.Lots of discussion between mind and heart.They finally early morning around 4.30 I get ready for my nalangu and late I change my saree and I am all set for the muhurtham.There it is..few seconds away..I lose the title of being a daughter and I am now declared as wife.

I enter into a house where everyone in their family (now mine too ) greets me with full of life.There I get a private space..my so called room.I just tell him hesitatingly "NOT NOW.. please ..I need some time!! ".He smiled..said its absolutely fine and we spoke for a loooong time and slept.

I was in my labor room.I saw him cry for me.I never told him the pain I was going through.But he could sense what I was going through.He asked the docs to do what ever necessary so that I am not under risk.He came over in spite of doctors not letting him in.As he kissed me he said love you.:)

friendship day!!

I just received as message from one of my school days which states " i've spent a part of my life with you.That as become a wonderful memory.Thank you so much for being my friend.happy friendship day "

I then remembered the good old school days... some bands were tied around the wrist as a token of love....Those days seems to be funny now ( ah!! sings of grown up phase )...the way people showed interests in celebrating this day.

I don't believe in a special day because everyday is a special day...Yet I would like to wish all my friends " happy friendship day ..."





PS: a perfect pessimists is writing the statement "because everyday is a special day" ..I have no comments..

down time :(

I am actually sick...its been almost 10 days now.. n the symptoms are worse!!!
oh!! btw im just sufferring from cold,sinus n fever..tats it... but trust me... cold n sinus is more that enough to pull us down.. Man!!! I simply hate them...
continuous sneezing,bad head ache,breathing problems...how much can a person handle at one go!!!

Huf!! its highly contagious.. every one at office suffer from the same disease.. can you believe this..everyone is under medication.. (in a way im happy.. so many to accompany me.. :) (sadist me :P)

Its been a long time calling up some of my friends..today I managed to call up meens.
I thought only I have the same feeling...but guess everybody has this feeling "she/he might be busy ...sleeping( I prioritize this :P ),working..etc..etc..we will cal up later n will end up by not calling at all.. "

Generally I meet people at their home...their parents and siblings,sometimes relatives too.. its a very nice feeling when you get to know the entire family of your friend..
But the truth is I have been to only to some of my school friends place.I think this is what makes school friends more special.Knowing everyone in the family,family friends,relatives,their neighbors,neighbors s neighbors..heheh..you actually become the integral part of everything in that house.

Now we tend to meet ppl in malls,ccd,pizza hut.I hate such meetings.But guess what..lately I met 2 of my friends in such places..n this Sunday I have plans of meeting sweety in a mall.God!!! I hate it.. but ..yes..I have no other go :( I promise...this will be last meeting in places like malls,ccd,pizza hut . Next time I have to meet someone..no matter what the situation is ... I will meet them either in their place or at my place.No PDA's :)


n im feeling very low due to various factors.... oh GOd.. please give me strength to handle everything whats happening right now..I am not complaining... but yes... i'm ashamed of myself...life is good now..soon I would like to say life is best!!

!!!!

1. Never be dependent ( this is really tough !!! im am full n full dependent )
2. Go by your rules ( ok..by following this stmnt..i have gained only enemies..but who cares..i still follow this :P)
3. Be answerable to yourself and your conscience. ( oh oh..okok)
4. Never expect, it only hurts. ( Very True )
5. Be assertive. ( meaning ?????? )
6. Work smart ( not on my list... will never learn this art of being smart:( :( )
7. Everything has a reason to occur (yes..i believe in this stmnt..but i hate to admit tat this is the fact :D)
8. Its OK if you don't do good to others, but don't do anything bad ( no comments ... i accept tat )

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out of topic
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the only one work/job a women cant do on this earth (or to put it simple ..lets take India alone)

Any guess !!!!!!!!!
i figured it out .. yep!!
yes!!
will update soon... :)

bharathiyaru jenu thuppadha banna..i heard this from my sis..seems some kavi wrote this(actually she mentioned the kavi's name..I completely forgot)... n i loved this stmnt... :) what a comparison.. the color wheatish is ruled out :P

Few things cannot be said...but can be read..
Few things cannot be read... but can be felt..
Few things cannot be written..but can be seen..
Few things cannot be seen...but can be sensed..
Few other things which does not fall into any of this category..
simply come along and vanish in ones thought..
unsaid , unread , unseen & unheard....

a day to remember...

after 10 months .. i met shiv today..
It was a nice feeling to meet someone whom you have not met for nearly 10 months or so..But certainly I was not happy and sure even he has the same feeling.. tats coz i was at office and I took one hour permission.I hate doing this cos office hours is meant for office.
No personal meeting should be involved in working hours.(well I think thiss is ttooo much... I kw... )but you know ..I am really scared..
little sincere abt sincerity n stuffs..( am i actually speaking the truth ??? yes I am or ( or i reckon ) oh!!! well im not sure...ok forget it.. )

he came all the way from his place immediately after office.we went to a temple.It was a nice temple.After so long I am actually stepping into a temple... :) the feeling was good.. but you know Wat..all the time i was thinking about """ the time constraint """ n I was all in a hurry burry state... I was reminded of mysore.. i miss that place so badly.. should I say place or People.. well!!! actually both :)

This was not the best day.. but this was a day to remember!!!!!!
Thanks for coming shiv.. :) :)

happy bday....

WELL!!!!!!! I'm obsessed with this i must say.. her bday is on jul 16th... I cant wait for tat day..so here goes the advance wishes,,,

You are too precious to be lost into this world....

en anukkal thorum ni iruppai
AnU endra peyaral..
endrunm iruppai..
AnU vin ninaivugal en anukkallodu endrum kalandhirukkum..
anbu thozhi AnU virkku..
pirandhanal vazhthukkal...
en anbu muthhangal...

happy bday!!!!!!!!!

Just a thought...

Just a thought...

Why does a primary school teacher is paid very less when compared to high school teachers and lectures????

I agree mom is the first teacher.But once schooling starts I guess its the primary teacher who will play a major role in the kids future.

They are the ones who corrects our mistakes and with full patience they teach us the basics of addition ,sub.multiplication and division which we stick on till our death.They are the ones who make us learn the language be it ABCDE or a aa e ee... or as a matter of fact who teach us how to hold pencils.They are the ones who teach us "How To pronounce the words" and they are the ones who make our handwritings perfect..they make our interests, be it drawing ,sports, dance or academics..they are the ones who handled us carefully whem we refused to do our homeworks.they taught our basic morals, discipline , et all.They punished us for what is wrong and appreciated us for small little good things we did at the age of 4-5.Above all they are the ones who are responsible for what we are now!!!!

But an high school teacher or a lecturer with Phd care less..I must say very less.They have absolutely no patience at all.Trust me.They have absolutely 0^0 patience( read as zero to the power Zero and mathematically i have no idea about the value of this .it could be either 0 or 1.But i consider it as 0).When our basics are clear we could go upon any degree to reach our goal.Either you take the help of the high school teacher or your lecturer.It does not matter.Even with out them you can achieve your destination.They are serve very little these days.Logically they are just expanding their knowledge.

I am not against lectures. I just want to make things clear that they pay very less attention to students.They actually think we are grown ups and we can handle ourselves.Yes!!very true.But the person incharge for our development is definitely lower primary teachers.

But I salute the primary teachers who could see us what we are and who molded us for what we are now.

:) I just wish if they were overpaid than these phd holding lectures who exist for a very minimal purpose.

Am i really that jobless!!!!

Tamizh senthamizh maanadu...

Tamizh senthamizh maanadu... well i'm proud of this event...but there are lots more to be done in this nation.I understand the importance of what a classical language means!! but I guess this is not the right time to celebrate it.Seems to be little odd..There are so many issues with in teh country..OK forget country ..at least concentrate on the state...

Me belonging to the same state.. the first thing which i hate in the state is the way they give importance to the language..I understand its your mother tongue you need to respect it.But it doesn't mean you should not learn other language or use any other language...
Man!! we live in INDIA..not in China or Japan... we have varied languages all over the country... I don't think any one will ever sit in their own state for survival..its time to move on.
I guess we need to be more practical regarding this.

I know many students just because they cannot speak English they don't get job.Damn it..do these authorities even consider this issue.Few years back one engineering student committed suicide for the same reason.Does this even bother them.. N not to be surprised they educate their kinds and grand kids in a english medium school.Why don't they send them to the tamizh medium school id they are so patriotic about language...

I know there is absolutely no point cribbing about such things...
felt like screaming all these stuffs to the authorities there... which is anyway not possible..so writing it here..

NEVER MIND :)

attitude matters....

( again a fwd :) )

One day, the father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the express purpose of showing him how poor people live. They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family.

On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?"

"It was great, Dad."

"Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked.

"Oh yeah," said the son.

"So, tell me, what you learned from the trip?" asked the father.

The son answered:

"I saw that we have one dog and they had four.

We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have

a creek that has no end.

We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night.

Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon.

We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight.

We have servants who serve us, but they serve others.

We buy our food, but they grow theirs.

We have walls around our property to protect us; they have friends to protect them."

The boy's father was speechless

Then his son added, "Thanks Dad for showing me how poor we are."

Isn't perspective a wonderful thing? Makes you wonder what would happen if we all gave thanks for everything we have, instead of worrying about what we don't have. Appreciate every single thing you have, especially your friends!

"Life is too short and friends are too few."

When I saw U

( source : unknown .. i liked it.. so i'm posting it here :D)

When I saw your name next to mine,
In our wedding card,
I felt blessed.

When I saw you smile,
Seeing me in the traditional bride groom dress,
I felt teased.

When I held your hand,
During the marriage rituals,
I felt responsible.

When you entered my lonely bachelor life,
And changed it into a heavenly abode,
I felt lucky.

When you showed the same love as I did,
Towards my parents,
I felt proud.

When you scolded me,
For neglecting my heath amidst my hectic work,
I felt pampered.

When I saw you scream,
Crying out of labor pains,
I felt helpless.

When I saw tears of happiness in your eyes,
As you looked at our kid,
I felt blessed once again.

All these feeling have bloomed in my heart,
But are yet to blossom in reality.
As these are feelings I long to feel,
For these are still unfelt.

Will you marry me?

valzhkai ennum kai ill
viralgalennum padhai illai...
enada indha sodhanai...

thinking about meeting her after nearly 7 years, bcos I it makes me sad to think that I would again be missing her after she is gone back. I have got used to a life without her physical presence, but then again to meet her, laugh with her, hang out with her, eat with her, share moments like old times, and then let her go leaving me behind is pain. I would have to go through the phase of missing her once again !


Life is such a mixed bag ! ( I love this statement :) )

PS: these are the lines which I wanted to write..but could not frame them properly.. so I flicked it from unknown source :P nothing wrong in ctrl+c and ctrl+v as far as it does not hurt others.

no no & no....

When things are just not happening in our way..
just let them go...
no explanations..
no guilt feeling..
no looking back...
no worries...
no sorry....
no friends...
no nothing...

Sorry seems to be the hardest word....

Sorry seems to be the hardest word.... :(

I was never there when you needed me the most...
I know I was the one to be blamed.
I am not here to give any excuses
nor any justification for my mistakes...
All I wanted to tel you is nothing was intentional
n i am not worth it.

list tat never ends... :P

tender coconut --> vibitha,sindhu
chocos,vada --> jisha
hide n seek,rajma n roti,chocolates,chicken biriyan(shld i mention Hydrabadi chnk biriyanii :P) -->anu
idiyappam,chapathi,mango chutny-->shilpa
pure magic,lays,aaloo paratha,chocolates-->shongita
Green onion and corner house -- > Anu & Shongita ( I will nevr go to these places without them.Even if I go..i ll never have anything from there unless i go with them again... )
chicken biriyani-->arya
CCD --> deepti n sri
cinamon danish,fruit bowl,cold choco with icecream -->deepti
tea, dominos pizaa--> priya
cardomom tea,coffee machine --> prateek,shiv,praveen,ranjith,renin
blackcurrent icecream -->kruthika
curd n sugar -->vijayatha
masalapuri,et al -->thendral
pogadhe song,n the song from jhonny gadhar-->shanti
nayan dharse --> priya
thauba tere from emotional atyachar --> raghav
tang , kappa --> jisha's mom
kingfisher --> Anu :) brand ambassador

just to list the name n the things related to them :P
im so jobless... :)
i get reminded of these things when i think abt them..i get reminded of these ppl when i come across these things...

errr......

i have absolutely no time for my diary....... :(:(:( the saddest thing ever... man!!! i end up writing everything in my blog...my blog acts my personal diary...che..I hate to admit tat...
wat a pity ramya.. the things which are supposed to be with in you .. are being published out just coz... i sit in front of this comp full time n i am absolutely clueless n I end up doing this...
:(:(:( my god!! its so boring.........er

unsaid words!!!!

"There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them up from ur dream n hug them for real"

Insomniac.......

I so badly miss my friends.They are just a cal away... its just like... ring them up once... and I ll be fine :):)
but then I just cant do that.I hate to talk to them right now but I really want to .I feel great when I hear their voices.
i miss an&sh.. i wish i could meet you both n give a tight hug n say I love you :)

much awaited travel....

after a long break of 2 yrs if im right..i ll be traveling in a train!!!!!
yuppie...
I cant express in words how happy I am.
but this time to a different location..the place which I have not seen..the train I have not traveled in.
but to meet the most imp person, who played/plays a imp role in my life.
yes!!the big day- where your friend invites you to her marriage...
Thats when you realize the fact....
GOD!!!!!!! growth is fast!!!
group studies, practicing the math sums , or simply watching an old movie...or chatting abt "everything" which did'n matter to us....
gone are those days....
now its time for restless life.nothing more..lots of confusion n lots n lots of responsibilities..

I am so excited because I get to meet her after 7 long years and I hope I get some time to spend our / her "bachelorhood " together with out any intervention.

on the contrary I feel so sad because ..both of us were so happy being single...N she does not hold tat tag....a state of commitment and relationship is little difficult n tough to manage..
tats what I have heard from all my friends who tied the knots recently.You start loosing your identity."LIVING FOR OTHERS" this becomes the mantra :P

waiting for the whole event to take place..This is my first ever function I am attending (i hate being around people... in fact I prefer my marriage to place only with 2 people ie., him n I :):):):) its on the impossible list I know :) I don't loose anything in dreaming :)

oh btw.. forgot to mention...my friend shilpa's engagement is next week.I though this will be my first function.But i am afraid to say that I wont be attending this because I don,t want to.. I hope she understands :)

I admit the FACT!!!!!

I wholeheartedly admit the fact that I am a bad n a very poor writer.First I am not good at all good at ENGLISH n second my writings are direct translation ie., from my language to english.
so if in case anybody happens to read my "so called writing" please for heavens sake forgive me.Read it at your OWN RISK.

Marriage aka Business

A well known business in my society is marriage.The best way for a guy to settle in his life with property and a girl to look after him and his property ( in the name of gift from his in-laws)

For about 20-25 years parents look after their girl child.Then comes this age where the girl is all set for a custom called marriage.
This is the time where she is done with her studies and she is into job.There she dreams about a hell lot of things like
..helping her parents financially
..to fulfill her own dreams
..to some extent help the society
but all these thoughts are shattered just when the big occassion starts marching towards her...

Once bonded...she have to sacrifice all her dreams (atleast most of them on her list)
..not allowed to help her parents financially because "now she hav to think abt her own family"
..society is no more in her dictionary.

n more over the way "marriage is organized" my god!!!
the girls parents have to spend lacks n lacks ...by selling everything what they have acquired in years...
and this shameless GUY poses for the photos n videos smiling away to the glory!!!!!!!!!! shameless creature

MARRIAGE is directly proportional to "sondha selavula suniyam vachikkaradhu" (I love this dialogue :P)

The concept of marriages in my society is weired and I so wish Rajaram Mohan Roy was here to solve this issue.

PS: im not talking abt that 1% guys who actually support their wives who let their dreams come true.I wholeheartedly respect them.. kudos to such great MEN....im talking about the rest 99%..

mannipaya !!!!! ?????

mannipaya...
ennai ariyamal nan seidha thavarai
ennai ariyamal nan seidha pilaziai
mannipaya...

mannipaya...
ennai ariyamal nan konda kadhalai
ellam therindhum arindhum...puriyamal ponadharkkaga
un ninavugalai nan innum sumapadharkkaga
mannipaya...

mannipaya...
en vizhiodu unnai kanbhadharkkaga
en swasathil un manadhai kandadharkkaga
mannipaya...

mannipaya...
un ninaivai nan enrum marappadharkkillai
mannipaya...
ni ennai ??????

how does it matter !!!!!

how does it matter !!!!!

struggling through thoughts... she thinks how does it matter to have friends, relatives, parents,siblings.End of the day all it matters is you and your KARMA (if you beleive in).She understands that one cannot lead life all alone in this beautiful earth.There are lot more imp things to be considered like frns family relatives,society etc.But you know what you need is not pepole.Its people's thoughts and respect for each and individual soul.There is the limit and that is it.
It is necessary that we need people around to support ,but its not compulsory.You can lead a healthier life even with out people.I dont mean to say to think onlly about your life alone or dont care a damn about others.It means that dont give prority to anyone else.Assign the top most prority in your life as 'YOU' and YOu only'This is what she came up with when the love for 4 years brokeup.
strange......
N I partially agree to her statement....Live life as you want it to be.Never regret for anything you do.Be it good ot bad.MOVE ON.NEVER LOOK BACK coz looking back hurts and worsens the situation.
neither FRIENDS,PARENTS, NOR our so called SOCIETY will stand behind you. IT'S all about 3c's "confidence,courage,capability" and the 2 Y's "YOU" and "YOURSELF"
Remember you are responsible for your thoughts and actions.
LIVE LIFE....LOVE LIFE....

unedited :(:):(

Well..These days I read a lot actually... n that too blogs..I looove reading blogs.I some how feel that blogging makes sense.Those are the words written from happiness,sadness or say just for the heck of writing.

and again..I love writing.To be honest I am bad at ENGLISH.I have no sense for grammar or the usage of words. May be this is the reason I didn't start the so called blogging.n I hate But now I wonder I sit in front of comp to write( this is strange coz I hate computers [;)] ).I hate to publish my posts for the reason that they are just too silly at times and those end up in my drafts :) (thanks to a folder named drafts).

I actually started writing when my friend moved away to a distant place.( otherwise the only letter I wrote was leave letters or something of that kind in school just to score marks in my periodicals).The good old days where you wait for the postman to ring the bell.OMG... tats called the "happiness".You have no patience to read the letter and you tear them from a wrong side(this is the wrong usage of words I guess..does it matter) and later spend an hour to put them together to read is no more(This actually happend!!! can you believe tat).I remember the first letter of hers and I was so excited.I read it nearly 25 times and all her letters are by-heart.I still read them when I am bored.And thanks to the telephones and emails for making me lazy.Now we speak very often thru mails chats n mobile.Yet the happiness what you get while reading those words .... absolutely no substitute.. :):):) words speak sharper when written.

Later, at some point of time I started with my dairy and I love this too.I scribble like mad.I cry, laugh, think, speak , express when I pen down.But some how I don't feel like writing in dairy now( n thanks to my sis for that..sigh !!!!)
and thanks to my friend who gifted a diary which was a real surprise.But im sorry that " hey girl, I don't really write in there " I only take a look at it when I miss You.

Out of frustration I started blogging.But I love writing. Be it letters,dairy,blogs.I simply love them.They are purely the thoughts form bottom of the heart.

Thanks a ton :)

This is for 2 special people I met in my life...
to an n sh
time to say Sorry n Thanks..
Thanks for teaching me the most important aspect of life...
and sorry
( for various reasons..most of all...for being such an Idiot)
if they get to know this link..i'm so dead..
shhhh!!!!!!!!!

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

I have been through some situations which I hate to admit.
BUt somewhere I need to mention about my “friends factor”.
Tough times prevails all over…but they seem to be perfectly all right when I think abt myself..
I am not a very social kinda person.
I talk only to people who approach me first.(ok..I hate to admit this one too)
Even if they do... I really don't think I make it up to their expectations.
Its really hard for people to stand me.
Apart from these extreme qualities of mine,I found few people who have made my life worth
by teaching me a hell lot a things in life which keeps me going.

Many to mention on this list..but I ll pick 3 for now…no priorities as such..Its the order-->how I met them. BUT they all are of equall imp..

First Ms.J..I have no clue how we got to know each other.She was one girl I met during my early primary days.I hated her for two reasons at that time.One, tat girl studies so well n I get trashed at home for no scoring tat well and thesecond, her mom was working and so she used to catch water from a place for which again my mom used to say " Look at her n learn something"
:) Though distance separated us,we bonded so well as the time passed by.I am sure nobody can ever understand me like she does.We never spent our time together but yet we understand each other so well.Its just that I think I hav to cal her up..there rings my phone… n man!!! This works every time I just think of dialing her number..
Distance doesn't matter to us.She is my first teacher and my inspiration.

Next Ms.A. This girl is strange.I love n hate her equally.:) inspiration number 2.
An extreme character who can think a little beyond our normal thinking.Very difficult to compromise her.Man!!!! I have absolutely no patience for compromising n all that stuffs.. and I don't care a damn...but to this girl...I have no clue..I have a little patience.....Its been so long meeting her. But almost every day we speak over the phone ( thanks to the phones)Lots to learn from this girl too n I have learnt a hell lot of things.N she is worth a million for no reason.

N finally Ms.S who is "I donno what and how to describe her."She is my second teacher and inspiration number 3.She is the best and worst by all means. Lots to learn and YES!!! I have learnt a lot.She was the one who made me realize expectations kills’ happiness.Someone who can just recite what I am exactly thinking of.(may be she is attempting a wild guess!! But it has always been right). Cheers shon..:)

I’ll never miss them in my life coz they stay right next to me n direct me..I play,talk,fight,ask my stupid countless doubts etc etc all in my mind..Yet I receive the response and answer for everything I need.
I donno if I can stay in touch for the rest of my life…but my day will not end without thinking or getting involved with them mentally. I m sure years from now… I ll say this dialogue again n again.
Time and place can separate people but not their thoughts.
Lately I have met many but...these 3 IDIOTS will always remain special..
A hundred times I have thanked them, I still don't mind saying a Zillion THANKS
Because they are worth it... :)

This post is solely meant for Mr.Prateek aka Preethi....

Well...this post is solely meant for Mr.Prateek aka Preethi....
The first person to read my so called blog and the first person to comment on it...
In fact I wonder how on earth he got to know that I write..
I appreciate his patience for reading my first writing which was
I would consider it to be a sad story, also which had hell lot of mistakes(not sure )
and I regret for deleting that post :) felt little odd about it for no reason ;)

Thanks Preethi for reading my so called writing and motivating me... :):)

UnWelcoming Welcome....

time to Live,
time to Cherish,
time to Forget,
time to Forgive,
time to Command,
time to Demand,
time to Love,
time to Hate,
time to Change,
time to Treasure,
time to Miss,
time to Kiss,
time to Reckon,
time to Beckon,
time to Win,
time to Loose,
time to Welcome,
the UnWelcoming "DEATH"...

Thank YOU !!!

she is the best and the worst..
who taught me everything about life..
love n hatred...
possessive n jealous..
optimism and pessimism..

she is the best and the worst..
who made me understand who I am..
who made me realize I need to change..
who made me think about life..
who made me laugh n cry at situations ..
who stood behind me telling "DON'T GIVE UP"..
she is the best and the worst..

Time keeps people away..but their presence is always felt..
your presence is felt every time I think i am worth..
every time I think I cant do it, I hear your voice saying "DONT GIVE UP"..
every time I think I am happy ,I can see you smile at me...
Thanks for being with me
making me strong enough to handle myself...

THANK YOU :):)

who am I

Remember those days....
nothing much to talk about,
nothing much to accomplish,
nothing much to think about,
yet we never thought we wasted our precious time...
we spent the whole day doing nothing,
End Of the Day we were satisfied of doing nothing and were happy of what we were...


Now,
we have so much to do,
so much to talk about,
so much to accomplish,
so much to think about,
but we think we are wasting our time by doing something
which is not our cup of tea...
End Of the Day we are not happy of what we are..

Is this the difference between a student and a professional???

to be honest... i have no clue why... i miss infy...
for no reason i miss tat place...

things just fall into place and some how
they at the same pace they just move away from you for no reason.

Well.. i convince myself saying that it was indeed a good learning experience..
but somewhere botom of my heart...
it ponders saying

why only me????
"may be 1% etc hardwork n concentration would have helped me in clearing the training"

n I have become a self centered.. which is pretty much ok

doing nothing in life or
rather
much better words... dont know what exactly to do...
its so irritating wen u say i hav no clue wat to do or how to proceed..
i am 22 and i still stay i hav no clue on waat i am supposed to do!!!!!!!!!!!!
how ridiculous..

yuppie!!!!!!!!

wow!!!! after a long time.... perfect weather in Bangalore...... im loving it.. :):):)

something something !!

life!!!!!!!!!

life is so strange..

you expect something...something else happens.
you dont expect anything...something strange happens..
when you really want to do something..you don't know what is that something..
finally when you start doing something, you end up doing something else..
and when you start thinking about something..you end up loosing something...

All I can say is LIFE SUCKS...BIG TIME...

oh yeah...
I convince myself saying "EVERY THING HAPPENS FOR A REASON".
crap..
I hate this statement.
whats that bloody reason???????????????????

the final product of this statement : cry,sulk,moan,etc...
and again revert to the same solution saying

"EVERY THING HAPPENS FOR A REASON".


I hate it :(:(

Nijam Nizhalanadhu... :)

unnai nan parthapiragu
en manam solliyadhu....
nithan anbu,pasam,natpu,kadhal endru...

unnodu pazhagumbodhu
en manam solliyadhu...
nithan en thozhi,kadhali,vazhkai endru...

unnai vittu piriyumbhodhu
en manam solliyadhu...
ni ennodu iruppai...
en swasamaga ..nesamaga....
un ninaivugal eppodhum ennai vittu
piriyadhu endru...

unnai vittu prindhapodhu
en manam solliyadhu...
ni ippodhum ..eppodhum ennodu iruppai...
nijamaga alla... nizhalaga........
endrum .....endrendrum