Parenthood

The happiness of becoming a mother and the joy beyond that is what was expected. However, things doesn't happen as we wish for.

Gave birth to a boy baby on Jan 8th. This baby's survival happened to be purely luck and only prayers. Its  underweight and I hope the babys condition will improve fast. At the moment baby is in NICU and it will be there for more than 45 days.


God save my baby and make his health stronger!

Prayers!

Faith & Hope

Hope all are doing well . Things are not under control here. The baby's growth is not up to the mark. At 28 weeks, baby has grown only 25th week. Weight of the baby also seems too less to even deliver the baby as premature baby. Docs say blood flow to the baby is less and there is some redistribution happening within the placenta and food is not reaching baby  etc etc. There is a scan coming Thursday. Hopefully there should be some good news.

All I have is hope and faith.

Break!!

Last post from office. Its kinda hard to even grasp this feeling. Not sure how long this break would remain. All what I have is HOPE.

No laptop at home, so I will be disconnected from the internet , not sure for how long.
Hope to see you all soon.
Take care.


See you soon!!

Random

So much happening in life. Not liking the morning sickness, nausea, and dizzy feeling. I am just waiting for this period to get over. I have become more lazy now and that I was not able to manage work and home , gave my resignation after so much of thoughts. No one liked the decision. But I was in no mood to work and the mood swings were hampering my work too. Against my parents wish, I decided to resign and remain peaceful during this pregnancy. I needed this break so much.  Its gonna be tough but I am sure, it should be fine . I don't know about future, but all I now have is peace of mind.Will hunt for a job after 2 yrs.

And these doctors, they are too busy to handle patients. Hardly 10 mins is spent with patient. They dont talk much. Any complaints that we say, they answer to the point.They don't really explain how we should be. No unnecessary talks. I am surprised, for the huge amount of fee that they collect, they hardly spend 5- 10 mins with the patient . Cant  blame doctors, the crowd in the hospitals . Oh god!!

But yet,  I feel docs must spend a good amount of time with every patient.

Happenings!

Life is somewhat unclear. I am not good at this job. I don’t know why, I have been hating this since day one, yet I haven’t made one step to may my work life better. I have lost that sincerity and commitment. These days , I am ready to listen the blast from PM and TL  and I don’t really care. This attitude of mine is the worse.

And to add to fuel to the fire  which is already burning royally inside, this time mid-appraisal went very bad. The fact is that they have changed their policies and from now on, all the leaves (except  CL’s ) will be included in this. So if I take  a day off, then I loose points. Some weird calculations and it has 40% weightage. So for the first half, I have very less points and the reason being I took leaves for the wedding L This is a direct impact on the performance pay. I am loosing a huge amount !! LL

Apart from all this, there is happy news too. Did a home pregnancy test and its positive JJJ

Can’t believe I am married and  I have a life within.Waiting for the crucial 3 months to fly soon so that I can inform everyone J

Take care!

~Moving~

Its been more than an year in this office space.Today will be the last day in this cubicle.Since the contract period of the building ends, we are moving to the new space which is pretty much close to my home. But yet, I like this place.There is a balcony where you can always get some fresh air. Long corridor to walk for 10-15 mins break next to my cubicle.
The spacious cubicles, huge personal drawers ( though nothing personal was kept in mine) , the cafe space and most of all , the little bit of greenery which is surrounded outside a nearby college and the view of the trees. Will miss every thing.

The only benefit in the new office building is the distance.And that place has absolutely no fresh air and greenery. and the place is too congested. If I stretch my leg , then I am blocking the way for others and the coffee breakout is bad.The only good thing is better canteen.
Ah,comforts I see ...

Well, a change is always good. Will get used to that place too. Last post from this building !!

random

After marriage, there seems to be absolutely no savings. Some or the other expenditure crops in and all the time bank balance is minimal.

Waiting for the month end!!! 

Panam

illai endralum sandhosham illai,

irundhalum nimmadhi illai,

Panam

nalla maatrangalukkum panam than mudhaleedu

themai kaariyangalukkum panam dhan mudhaleedu

oh maname

ni endru panam meedhu moham kollamal iruppai ?